thinking of you today

Two years ago just barely a week before Christmas my father-in-law was rushed into heart surgery. It caught us all by surprise and we were all scared of losing him. Today, he is having heart surgery again. This time it isn't a surprise, it's a scheduled surgery with much more prep work. We knew this one was coming, we could prepare ourselves. The problem is that with all the time in the world you can't really prepare yourself for the possibilities. You sit staring at the clock guessing what is going on and how much longer you think things will take. You pace by the phone afraid you will get a phone call....and terrified you won't get one. You are caught between a world of knowing and not knowing...unsure of which is better.

Today, as I type my father-in-law is having surgery while my mother-in-law and 3 of their children wait at the hospital. 3 other children are attempting to maintain their normal activities. There are children to care for and jobs to be done all the while knowing and not knowing what is going on...unable to help and wanting to help all the same.

Along with the 6 kids there are the wives, husbands, and grandchildren today with thoughts on the patriarch of the family. All of us carrying a special place in our hearts for someone who lights up the world with his smile and witty humor... for someone we know as dad or pop.

Today, may God hold you in the palm of his hand and keep you safe...and may he safely return you to us with a body and mind to last many more years. Dad/Pop we love you and are sending prayers and best wishes to you today and always.